When We Scream at the One Who Holds Us

When We Scream at the One Who Holds Us

When We Scream at the One Who Holds Us

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When We Scream at the One Who Holds Us—and Trust Anyway

There’s a belief—often unspoken—that if we trust God, He will make things better. That prayer will shield us. That faith will smooth the road.

But then a flood comes.
And it takes a Christian summer camp filled with children.

And the question is spoken aloud:
“Where was your God?”

These are the moments when clichés collapse. When bumper-sticker faith peels off in the rain. When the phrases we’ve rehearsed—“God has a plan,” “Everything happens for a reason”—start to feel more like salt than salve.

What do we do when trusting God doesn’t stop the pain?

What do we do when He could have stopped it—and didn’t?


Trust and Suffering Are Not Opposites

This is where many lose their faith. But it’s also where the Bible gets brutally honest.

Job was a good man. Blameless, in fact. And yet he lost everything—his children, his wealth, his health, even the respect of his friends. His wife, devastated by the suffering, looked at him and said, “Curse God and die.”

She wasn’t weak. She was human. And I understand her.

Job didn’t receive answers. God didn’t explain Himself. He didn’t offer reasons. He just was. And Job, sitting in the ashes said:

“Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him.” (Job 13:15)

Not because it made sense. Not because it felt good. But because Job trusted in the fact that God is beyond our understanding. And that was enough to keep holding on.


Habakkuk: The Prophet Who Screamed and Stayed

Another voice from the pages of Scripture—Habakkuk—didn’t just cry out to God. He screamed in anguish and frustration:

“How long, Lord, must I call for help, but You do not listen?
Or cry out to You, ‘Violence!’ but You do not save?” (Habakkuk 1:2)

He saw chaos, injustice, silence, and he said so – boldly. But here’s what’s so staggering:

He screamed at the very One he was still clinging to.

He planted himself on the watchtower and waited for an answer. And when God finally spoke, it wasn’t the answer he wanted.

Yet by the end of the book, Habakkuk said this:

“Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines…
yet I will rejoice in the Lord.” (Habakkuk 3:17–18)

He didn’t say this because things had improved.
He said it in spite of the fact that they hadn’t.

Habakkuk didn’t walk away. He rested in the One he had shouted at.
This is not easy faith. This is faith with a limp.


Crimson Cord Faith

I won’t make excuses for God. I won’t pretend to understand His ways.

But I believe—no, I cling—to the truth that He is still who He says He is. He does not change. He is just. He is love. And somehow—through agony, through silence, through death—He is working redemption that I cannot yet see.

The Hebrew word for hope is tikvah—which also means cord or rope. It’s the word used for the scarlet cord Rahab tied in her window. A symbol of rescue. A thread of survival.

That’s what I’m holding on to. Crimson cord faith.
Blood-stained, tear-soaked, but unbreakable.


The Mirror in the Doctor’s Office

Years ago, Dr. James Dobson told a story about his small child suffering from a serious ear infection. The doctor had to act fast—no anesthesia, no preparation. He had to cut something out immediately.

Dobson held his son across his knees while the child screamed, unable to comprehend why his father was letting this happen.

But in the room was a mirror. And in that mirror, the child caught his father’s eyes.

Eyes full of pain.

The child didn’t understand the why.
But he was being held.
And he saw the face of love.

That image stays with me. Because sometimes we are that child. Screaming in pain. Helpless. Confused. Asking why the One who claims to love us allows such agony.

And sometimes all we get is a glimpse of His eyes.
And the knowledge that He hasn’t let go.


When the Hurt Is Yours—or Someone You Love

Maybe you’ve carried a deep loss.
Maybe someone you love has suffered unfairly, unbearably, and you have no answers—just ache.

You don’t have to pretend it’s okay. The Bible never asks you to. In fact, it gives you permission to scream at the God who holds you.

Because real faith doesn’t mean silence.
It means still facing Him, even when you don’t understand.

You don’t have to explain it.
You don’t have to fix it.

You just have to hold on.
Dig in your heels.
Clutch the crimson cord.
And whisper with every shred of hope left:

“Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him.”

Because I’ve seen His eyes in the mirror.
And I know—He’s still there.


💬 Know someone who’s suffering right now?

Send them this post—or just sit with them and be present.
Sometimes trust sounds less like answers, and more like being there.

Week of 7/11/25 🔥 This Week in the RUMble Machine – Real Trades, Real Profits

🔥 This Week in the RUMble Machine – Real Trades, Real Profits

This is a full recap of how I operated the Machine this week. Nothing flashy. No moonshots. Just strategic covered calls, micro-trims, and disciplined use of margin to stack weekly premium.


📅 Daily Breakdown – What I Did and Why

🗓 Monday, July 7

  • ➡️ Bought back 1x $9 Call @ $0.58 (–$58.04)
  • ➡️ Bought back 1x $8 Call (Oct) @ $1.95 (–$195.04)
  • ➡️ Transferred $400 out to cover bills (life happens)

🗓 Tuesday, July 8

  • ➡️ Sold 2x $9.50 Calls @ $0.30 (+$59.91)
  • ➡️ Bought more RUM shares via recurring and fractional buys (~$20)
  • ➡️ Transferred $200 in, then $220 out again for life needs

🗓 Wednesday, July 9

  • ➡️ Sold 2x $9 Calls @ $0.40 each (+$79.90)
  • ➡️ Bought back 2x $9.50 Calls @ $0.25 (–$50.08)
  • ➡️ Recurring buys continued, ~4 new shares added around $8.90–$9.05

🗓 Thursday, July 10

  • ➡️ Bought 80 RUM shares @ $9.45 on margin (–$755.98)
  • ➡️ Bought 10.5 more shares @ $9.49 (–$100)
  • ➡️ Sold 1x $9 Call @ $0.65 (+$64.95)

🗓 Friday, July 11

  • ➡️ Bought back 3x $9.50 Calls @ $0.20 (–$60.12)
  • ➡️ Sold 3x $9.50 Calls @ $0.25 (+$74.87)
  • ➡️ Bought back 3x $9 Calls @ $0.44 (–$132.12)
  • ➡️ Sold 3x $9 Calls @ $0.35 (+$104.87)
  • ➡️ Recurring buy: 1.08 shares @ $9.22 (–$10)

💰 Weekly P/L Summary

Category Amount
Options net premium profit +$144.14
Shares sold profit (from 40 sold at $8.50) +$20.80
Margin interest $0
Total Realized Profit +$165

📈 Portfolio Snapshot

  • 📊 Portfolio size: ~$2,200
  • 📈 Weekly ROI: ~7.5%
  • 🧠 Margin balance used: ~80 shares, no interest charged

⚠️ Weekly Strategy Highlights

  • ✅ Sold and rolled covered calls for net premium gains
  • ✅ Used margin to sell calls earlier (and profit from IV)
  • ✅ Bought dips and repositioned strike prices tactically
  • ✅ Didn’t panic during drawdowns — just let Theta work

🔥 Final Operator Summary

This was a real week. No moonshots. No YOLOs. Just:

  • ✔ Covered calls
  • ✔ Rolling and repositioning
  • ✔ Margin used wisely
  • ✔ Micro-trims and premium stacking

Even while paying bills and pulling funds, I still cleared **+7.5% ROI this week**. That’s what a well-run Machine can do when you stay sharp and let the Greeks work in your favor.


💡 Your Next Move:

  • ✅ Start your own machine
  • ✅ Stick to the system
  • ✅ Let Theta and discipline do the work

If you want to learn how this system works, check out my full breakdown here:

🔧 Make Your Own Machine – Part 1

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Disclaimer: I am not a financial advisor, and nothing in this blog is financial advice. The content here is for educational and entertainment purposes only, sharing what I do with my own money and strategy. Always do your own research and consult with a qualified financial professional before making investment decisions. Trading and investing involve risk, including the potential loss of principal.

Daily Armor: Living Fully Armored in Union with Christ

Daily Armor: Living Fully Armored in Union with Christ

Daily Armor: Living Fully Armored in Union with Christ

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🛡️ Daily Armor

Living Fully Armored in Union with Christ

Ephesians 6:10–18

“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might.” — Ephesians 6:10

Paul doesn’t say, “Be strong in yourself.” He says, “Be strong in the Lord.” Why? Because our strength isn’t rooted in self-effort—it’s rooted in relationship.

When we put on the armor of God, we’re not just donning symbolic gear. We are entering into the mindset, authority, and abiding presence of Jesus Christ through the Holy Spirit. This armor isn’t lifeless equipment—it’s a living invitation to walk in union with Him.


1. Belt of Truth

Truth isn’t just a concept—it’s a Person.

“I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life.” — John 14:6

The belt holds everything together—just as Christ holds all things together. When we walk closely with Him, Scripture becomes more than reading; it becomes a conversation. His voice anchors us.

🕊️ Prayer: Jesus, You are the Truth. Help me not just read the Bible, but hear You in it. Let Your truth hold me steady and free me from every lie.

2. Breastplate of Righteousness

This righteousness isn’t earned—it’s received. When we forget that, we drift into pride or collapse into shame. But the Holy Spirit constantly calls us back to our identity in Christ. He convicts to restore, not to condemn.

🕊️ Prayer: Holy Spirit, remind me today that I’m covered in Christ’s righteousness. Guard my heart from guilt, shame, or striving.

3. Shoes of the Gospel of Peace

Peace doesn’t come just from knowing the Gospel, but from walking in it—with the Prince of Peace. He guides our steps into hard places with unshakable calm. The more we follow His voice, the more peace we carry into every space.

🕊️ Prayer: Jesus, order my steps today. Let me be a carrier of peace, not just a consumer. Make me sensitive to Your Spirit’s leading.

4. Shield of Faith

Faith grows by hearing—not just about God, but from God.

“Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of Christ.” — Romans 10:17

As we learn to discern His voice, the enemy’s lies lose power. The Spirit calls God’s promises to mind when we need them most—extinguishing fear and strengthening trust.

🕊️ Prayer: Father, speak Your promises over me today. Help me tune out lies and raise my shield through trust in You.

5. Helmet of Salvation

This guards our minds—not just with right thinking, but with solid identity. When our thoughts are set on Christ, lies can’t take root. The Holy Spirit renews our minds, trains our thoughts, and reminds us: You are already victorious.

🕊️ Prayer: Lord, protect my mind from confusion, distraction, and doubt. Anchor me in the salvation I already have in You.

6. Sword of the Spirit — The Word of God

This isn’t just about quoting Bible verses. The “sword” Paul refers to is the rhema of God—a word spoken and made alive by the Spirit, straight from the heart of Jesus. The Bible equips us, yes—but the true sword is a living, present word from the Living Word Himself.

Just as Jesus answered Satan with words breathed by the Spirit, we too must learn to listen before we speak. The Spirit teaches us not just what’s written—but how to apply it in the moment with precision, courage, and grace.

🕊️ Prayer: Holy Spirit, train me to hear the voice of Jesus. Let the Word come alive in me—not just in my reading, but in every moment. Help me respond with Your truth, not just my memory.

7. Praying in the Spirit

Prayer is the breath of the believer. It’s not just talking—it’s listening, abiding, communing. The Spirit helps us pray when we don’t have words and makes us aware of what others need—even when they haven’t said a word.

🕊️ Prayer: Lord, help me walk and talk with You throughout the day. Let my heart stay open to Your whisper and alert to Your leading.


❤️ Final Reflection

Putting on the armor of God isn’t about checking a spiritual box—it’s about staying in step with a Person.

This armor is not dead weight or ritual. It’s relational. Each piece draws us closer to Jesus. Each part invites us to listen, walk, trust, and remain in communion with the One who fights for us.

You don’t need to be strong on your own. You don’t need to have all the answers. You only need to walk with the One who is the Truth, the Righteous One, the Prince of Peace, the Faithful Shield, the Saving King, the Living Word, and the Breath in your prayers.

Walk with Him, and you will be clothed in strength. Stay close, and you will not fall.

He is not asking for performance. He is offering presence. And His love is not just armor—it’s the reason you can stand.

Written with love and purpose,
The Gentleman Outlaw Team
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Is It Really Compassion to Let Everyone In?

Is It Really Compassion to Let Everyone In?

“Where is your compassion?”

That’s the question often thrown at anyone who believes in border security or the deportation of illegal immigrants – especially those with criminal records.

The argument goes like this:

We should welcome everyone because people matter.
Keeping people out is selfish and un-Christlike.
True compassion means opening our borders and letting them stay.

But is that really true compassion? Or is it shortsighted empathy that feels good today but harms millions tomorrow?

The Founders’ Vision of Compassion

America’s Founders believed in compassion. They saw each human as created equal by God, endowed with unalienable rights. But their compassion was grounded in responsibility and sustainability.

Thomas Jefferson said:

“To compel a man to furnish funds for the propagation of ideas he disbelieves and abhors is sinful and tyrannical.”

That same logic applies to immigration. Is it compassionate to force citizens to fund the welfare, medical costs, housing, and policing required by uncontrolled immigration – especially when it places their own families and communities at risk?

Or is it compassionate to protect your citizens first, build a strong, free, thriving nation, and then help others from a place of strength rather than weakness?

Short-Term Feelings vs. Long-Term Compassion

Let’s be honest. It feels compassionate to let everyone in. It makes for good Instagram posts. It soothes guilt. It avoids confrontation.

But what happens long-term?

  • ✅ Communities are overwhelmed. Hospitals close maternity wards under financial strain. Schools collapse under overcrowding. Social services designed for citizens cannot keep up.
  • ✅ Wages stagnate. Low-skilled American workers – often immigrants themselves who came legally – are forced to compete against illegal labor willing to work off-books for less.
  • ✅ Crime rises. Not all illegal immigrants commit violent crimes. But a portion do. If even 1% commit felonies, that is thousands of innocent victims who would not have suffered if immigration laws were enforced.
  • ✅ National unity fractures. Compassion turns into resentment as citizens watch their government prioritize non-citizens over their own veterans, elderly, and children.

True Compassion: Strong Borders, Strong Nation

If Trump’s second term focuses on:

  • Removing illegal immigrants with criminal records
  • Securing the border to end the cartel human trafficking pipeline
  • Enforcing laws fairly while expanding legal immigration based on merit and national needs

…then this is not cruelty. It is compassion rightly ordered.

Here’s why:

  • ✔️ It protects citizens. The first duty of any government is to its own people. Without that, it is no government at all.
  • ✔️ It builds a nation worth immigrating to. A collapsing economy, overwhelmed hospitals, and rising crime help no one.
  • ✔️ It preserves dignity. Illegal immigrants live in fear, exploited for labor, unable to participate fully in American life. A strong legal system upholds their dignity by ending that exploitation.
  • ✔️ It helps future generations. Children raised in a stable, safe, economically strong nation grow up to invent, build, and lead – creating advancements that bless the entire world.

Compassion That Lasts

Those accusing border security advocates of lacking compassion often confuse emotion with virtue. It feels good to welcome, but true virtue asks:

What are the consequences?
Who pays the cost?
Will this help or harm the people entrusted to my care?

Biblically, compassion begins with family and community. 1 Timothy 5:8 warns:

“But if anyone does not provide for his own, and especially for those of his household, he has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever.”

That provision extends outward, but it starts at home.

America’s Founders Understood This

They built a system designed to bless generations. By securing borders, enforcing immigration law, and building economic strength, we create a nation that can:

  • ✅ Bless the world with trade and innovation
  • ✅ Send missionaries and humanitarian aid abroad
  • ✅ Receive legal immigrants who integrate and thrive

Compassion rooted in founding principles builds freedom, dignity, and prosperity – not just for us, but for the world.

Invitation to Think

True compassion isn’t opening the door without wisdom.

It’s building a home so strong, so free, so virtuous, and so prosperous that when you open the door, you have something worth sharing.

That’s what Trump’s second term vision seeks to restore. And that’s what the Founders intended all along.

Is Trump a Dictator – or Just Giving Voters What They Asked For?

Is Trump a Dictator – or Just Giving Voters What They Asked For?

We hear it every day:

“Trump is a dictator.”
“Trump is a fascist.”
“He’s trying to dismantle democracy.”

But what if, instead, Trump is simply delivering what a large portion of voters actually want?

The Founders’ Vision Revisited

In my last article, we imagined America as the Founders intended:

  • ✅ No federal income tax
  • ✅ No nationwide welfare system
  • ✅ Local and state-based charity
  • ✅ Limited federal government – strong on defense and foreign policy, almost silent on your day-to-day life

It’s a model where freedom and responsibility coexist, and federal power is so small that no matter who becomes President, your life remains largely in your hands.

The MAGA Vision

Now let’s look at MAGA’s stated goals:

  • Reduce federal regulations
  • Bring back manufacturing and local economic strength
  • Cut taxes
  • Secure borders and maintain strong national defense
  • Remove federal influence from local schools, businesses, and personal medical decisions

If you set aside the media noise and analyze it through a Founders’ lens, this isn’t the vision of a dictator. In many ways, it is a restoration of the original constitutional model:

  • ✔️ Less centralized power
  • ✔️ More local and personal authority
  • ✔️ Greater economic freedom

But Why Does It Feel Dictatorial to Some?

Because in modern America, we’ve grown accustomed to:

  • A powerful centralized bureaucracy
  • Executive agencies that regulate everything from farming to toilets
  • Redistribution systems where Washington collects and spends trillions annually

To dismantle this structure feels violent to those who see government as caretaker. But to those who see government as servant, it feels like liberation.

Trump: The Dictator or the Rebuilder?

If Trump’s second term focuses on:

  • ✅ Stripping power from unelected agencies
  • ✅ Returning decision-making to states and individuals
  • ✅ Ending federal micromanagement of daily life

…then by definition, he is reducing his own power, not consolidating it.

Dictators centralize authority.
Rebuilders decentralize it.

The True Threat to Tyrants

Ironically, the Founders’ model – which Trump’s base often calls to restore – is the greatest threat to any would-be tyrant. If federal power is weak, no single man can become king. That was the design.

When people say “Trump wants to rule us all,” it’s worth asking:

What policies is he proposing that put more of your life under federal control?

Or is he proposing policies that remove federal control from your life?

Invitation to Think

If you oppose Trump, oppose him on honest grounds. But if you believe he’s a dictator because he wants to decentralize power, perhaps it’s worth reexamining the narrative.

Maybe he isn’t a fascist trying to control every part of your life.

Maybe he’s just giving voters what they asked for:

  • ✅ Less government
  • ✅ More freedom
  • ✅ Responsibility returned to the people

And perhaps… that scares some far more than dictatorship ever could.