When the Leaves Fall

When the Leaves Fall

When the Leaves Fall

When the Leaves Fall

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Luke 13:6–9 — “A man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard; and he came seeking fruit on it and found none. Then he said to the vinedresser, ‘Cut it down; why should it use up the ground?’ But the vinedresser answered, ‘Sir, let it alone this year also, until I dig around it and fertilize it.’”

The vineyard was quiet, the branches bare. Year after year, the owner came looking for fruit—and found none. His patience had worn thin. But before the axe could swing, the gardener stepped forward.
“Give it one more year,” he said. “Let me tend the soil. Let me care for it again.”

That’s the voice of Jesus—the Master Gardener who sees worth where others see waste.
He’s not quick to discard or condemn. When our lives look barren, when nothing seems to grow, He kneels beside the roots and begins to work the soil of our hearts again.

John 15:4–5 — “Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself unless it abides in the vine, neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the vine; you are the branches.”

Here in Ohio, the trees stand nearly bare. The glory of October has fallen to the ground, and the cold November wind whistles through empty limbs. If you didn’t know better, you’d think the trees were dead. But they’re not. Deep below, life still pulses. The roots are storing energy, preparing for spring.

It’s the same with us.
There are seasons when God allows the leaves to fall—when the beauty we once carried fades, when work slows, relationships shift, or our sense of purpose dims. Pruning often feels like loss, disappointment, or confusion. We stand in a cold wind, wondering what we did wrong.

But maybe it’s not punishment.
Maybe it’s preparation.
Maybe the Gardener is tending deeper roots.

We like to show green leaves and bright fruit—to prove we’re thriving. But Jesus doesn’t ask us to perform. He asks us to abide. To stay. To trust that His hands are still holding us, even when nothing seems alive.

What does abiding look like in winter?
It looks like opening Scripture when feelings are flat. Whispering a simple prayer when words are few. Choosing small obediences when doors stay shut. Receiving love you can’t yet feel. Remaining near, not running away.

The seasons of the soul are not mistakes. They’re mercy. God’s pruning is never cruel—it’s careful. He removes what hinders life so that new life can grow. And fruit is promised in its season: “He is like a tree planted by streams of water… that yields its fruit in its season” (Psalm 1:3).

So if your branches feel bare, don’t fear the silence. The same God who painted the leaves in October will clothe the trees again in spring. As Thanksgiving approaches, choose gratitude not only for what God has given, but for what He is quietly preparing.


🌿 Reflect & Rest

What if this season of loss is really a season of rooting?
What if God’s silence is the sound of Him working deeper?
Can you trust the Gardener even when you see no green?

Maybe this is your “one more year”—the time He’s digging around your roots, quietly preparing you for fruit you can’t yet imagine.


📍 Prayer:
Lord, when the winds strip my branches bare, remind me that You are still my life. Teach me to rest, to abide, and to trust the seasons You bring. And when new leaves appear, may they bring glory to You alone. Amen.

Thy Will Be Done

Thy Will Be Done

Thy Will Be Done

Glorified Either Way

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We pray for healing. We pray for help.
But what if the greater miracle is learning to glorify God even when nothing changes?

Philippians 1:20 — “That Christ will be magnified in my body, whether by life or by death.”

We’ve all heard the prayer list.
One by one, hands are raised — “Pray for my surgery,” “Pray for my finances,” “Pray for my family.”
It’s not wrong to ask. Jesus told us to bring our needs before the Father.
But somewhere along the way, our prayers began to sound more like instructions:
“Lord, guide the doctor’s hands.”
“Remove the cancer.”
“Provide the money we need.”
We tell Him what to do and how to do it.

Yet when Jesus taught His followers to pray, He didn’t say, “Give me what I want.”
He said, “Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done.”
What if that simple phrase was meant to reshape every prayer we’ve ever prayed?

So maybe the question isn’t should we pray for healing or help.
Maybe the question is why we pray for them.
Are we seeking His hand, or His face?
One gives us relief. The other gives us life.

🕯️ When Prayer Doesn’t Change the Pain

Job lost everything — his wealth, his health, his family — yet whispered through the dust,
“The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.”

Jesus prayed in Gethsemane until His sweat became blood.
“Father, if You are willing, take this cup from Me; yet not My will, but Yours be done.”

Paul pleaded three times for his thorn to be removed, and God replied,
“My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”

Three prayers. Three denials. One truth:
God’s glory often shines brightest when our desires are not met.
Faith isn’t proven in what we receive, but in whom we trust when nothing changes.

💧 Hungry for the Wrong Thing

When the Israelites wandered in the wilderness, they cried out for food and water.
They had seen miracles, stood beneath Sinai’s thunder, and still they cried, “We’re hungry! We’re thirsty!”
God answered, but He also grieved.

Because what they truly needed wasn’t bread or water.
They needed Him.

Moses later reminded them, “Man does not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God.”

They were surrounded by the presence of the Living God, yet their prayers stayed fixed on their bellies.
They wanted answers. He wanted intimacy.

How often do our prayers sound like theirs?
“Lord, fix this. Provide that. Make this easier.”
We ask for the gift and miss the Giver.
We reach for the water and forget the One who said,
“Whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst.”
And the One who said, “I am the bread of life.”

Could it be that our deepest hunger is not for relief, but for relationship?
Every ache is an invitation to look up — not for rescue, but for revelation.

🧭 Faith That Trembles and Still Trusts

Sometimes prayer feels like standing in the dark, whispering into silence.
You’ve begged. You’ve believed. You’ve done everything right.
But heaven stays quiet, and the pain doesn’t lift.

If you’ve ever been there — waiting for healing that never comes, or watching someone you love slip away — you know how hard this is.
This kind of faith isn’t tidy or triumphant.
It trembles, it questions, it weeps — and still says, “Even if You don’t, I will trust You.”

Jesus never promised us comfort.
He promised us Himself.
And sometimes that means walking with Him through valleys we would never choose.

Maybe faith doesn’t erase pain; maybe it helps us see it differently.
It doesn’t demand understanding; it discovers glory.
We follow Him, not because He fixes every problem, but because He alone is worth following.

🤍 The Prayer of the Broken Saint

I know many of you are on your knees right now, crying out to God.
You’ve stared at the empty chair across the dinner table.
You’ve walked through a silent house where laughter used to live.
You’ve prayed until your throat ached.

There are moments when words run out — when you can’t keep asking for healing or help because the pain has taken all your strength.
And in that place, all that’s left is this:

“Lord, regardless of the outcome, glorify Your name.”

That’s the prayer of the broken saint.
That’s the prayer of Jesus in Gethsemane and the cry of Job in the ashes.
It’s not a prayer for deliverance — it’s a surrender to glory.
It’s not polished. It’s not eloquent. It’s just real.

Sometimes all we can do is lift our tear-stained faces toward heaven and whisper,
“I can’t carry this. I don’t understand it. But let it glorify You.”

And that’s enough.
Because that is faith — not the kind that moves mountains, but the kind that kneels in the rubble and still calls Him good.
Heaven hears that prayer more clearly than any sermon ever preached.

🙏 The Surrender He Invites Us Into

Our purpose is not to be comfortable — it’s to be conformed to Christ.
Our calling is not to have our problems fixed, but to have His presence formed within us.
Our highest aim is not success or safety, but this:
“Whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.”
“Everyone who is called by My name, whom I created for My glory.”

So here is my prayer:
No matter my circumstances, may my life, my health, my marriage, my finances — all of it — glorify You.
If You allow me to be sick, let my sickness glorify You.
If You allow me to live in poverty, let my poverty glorify You.
If You allow me to struggle, let my struggle glorify You.
And if You bring me down to the grave, may even my death glorify You.

That’s my only prayer.
I don’t ask for comfort, success, or even healing — only that my life would magnify Christ.
Because that’s the surrender He invites us into — the place where we stop chasing blessings and start beholding His beauty.

Lord, if You heal, may Your goodness shine.
If You don’t, may Your grace be seen in how we walk through it.
Either way, may You be glorified — in my body, in my story, in my life.

When His glory becomes our desire, even suffering becomes sacred.

🔥 Challenge to the Reader

So let me ask you — gently, but honestly:
What are you asking God for today?
Are you asking Him to fix what hurts, or to fill you with Himself?
If every prayer went unanswered, but His presence stayed near — would that be enough?

Maybe that’s what Jesus meant when He taught us to pray,
“Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done.”

It’s not resignation.
It’s worship.
It’s saying, “I belong to You. Do what brings You glory — and let me be part of it.”

Because in the end, that’s the only prayer that never goes unanswered.
And when His glory fills your ashes, you’ll see — He never left at all.

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Abba – Father!

Abba – Father!

Abba – Father!

The Cry “Abba”

When longing learns a word.

Based on Russell & Maria Moore’s adoption trip and the force of the word Abba (Galatians 4:6).

T he orphanage was quiet — too quiet. Not the stillness of peace, but the silence of children who had stopped believing anyone would come.

Russell and Maria had traveled halfway around the world to meet the two little boys who might soon become their sons. Behind gray walls and iron gates, they were led down echoing halls to a small room filled with metal cribs. The smell of disinfectant lingered in the air. Small faces peered through the bars — not curious, not playful, just waiting.

When they first saw him — a thin little boy with wide eyes — Maria reached down, and he didn’t pull away. She gathered him into her arms and whispered his name. He didn’t speak, didn’t cry. He just leaned into her warmth as if trying to remember what love felt like.

They played on the worn linoleum floor, stacking blocks and tickling tiny toes. For the first time in who knows how long, a faint laugh escaped his lips — quick, uncertain, but real. Russell lifted him high into the air, and the boy smiled. For hours, they held him, fed him, kissed the top of his head. It was as if their hearts had known him forever.

But every visit had to end.

On the final day before returning home, they knew what awaited — that long walk down the corridor, the sound of the door locking behind them, the echo of their own footsteps leaving him behind. They promised they’d return. They said it over and over. But how do you explain paperwork, visas, and government waiting to a child who’s only just discovered love?

When they turned to go, something inside Maria broke. She looked back one more time — just once more — and saw him standing in the crib, his knuckles white around the cold metal bars. His lips trembled, his eyes wide and wet, searching for her face as if memorizing it before it disappeared forever.

Russell’s hand tightened around hers. Neither of them could breathe. The air felt thick — too heavy to swallow. They tried to smile, to wave, to whisper that they’d come back soon. But their words fell flat in the sterile air.

Then it happened. The boy’s mouth opened, and from the hollow silence of that room came a sound no one had ever heard there before — a raw, broken scream that seemed to tear the walls apart. It wasn’t just crying; it was grief, it was fear, it was love that had awakened and didn’t know how to live without them.

His cry filled the hallway, echoing off the tile and chasing them down the corridor. Maria pressed a hand to her chest, wanting to run back — to hold him, to promise he’d never be alone again. But she couldn’t. Not yet.

“Abba!”

The word carried everything — longing, terror, hope, and recognition. It was the sound of a heart that had just learned it was loved… and could not bear to lose it.

Later, Russell wrote, “That was the moment I finally understood what Paul meant — when the Spirit cries out in us, ‘Abba, Father.’”

“Abba” isn’t a gentle nickname like “Daddy.” It’s the cry of a soul that’s been found — the cry that says, Don’t leave me. I’m yours now.

When that little boy screamed “Abba,” he wasn’t performing theology — he was revealing it. And in his cry, we hear our own — the echo of our hearts when we finally believe that Love has come for us, and will never walk away again.

Abba.


📎 Respond:

Take two minutes in quiet. Put a hand over your heart and pray the simplest prayer: “Abba, I’m yours.” If grief rises, let it. That ache is often where love is finally heard.

Share your “Abba” moment

Story adapted from Russell & Maria Moore’s adoption reflections; used here to illuminate the Scriptural “Abba” cry (Gal. 4:6; cf. Rom. 8:15).

When God Looks Angry

When God Looks Angry

When God Looks Angry

When God Looks Angry

🕯️ Sitting with the hard stories until love comes into focus

There are parts of the Bible that stop us cold. Stories that leave a lump in the throat and a question we don’t dare say out loud: How could a loving God do that?

  • A flood that drowns the world 🌊
  • Cities reduced to ash 🧱🔥
  • Entire nations—men, women, children, even animals—wiped from the earth ⚔️

If you’ve ever read those passages and felt sick or confused, you’re not faithless. You’re human.

These are not simple stories. They are stories of horror, grief, and judgment. They tell of a God who seems, at times, terrifyingly severe. And if we’re honest, we don’t know what to do with that.

Don’t rush to fix it. Sit with it. Let the ache ask better questions: What kind of love is this? What could drive a Creator to such desperate measures?

Because faith isn’t born in easy answers. It’s born in the tension—in the ache between what we see and what we still believe about who God truly is.


💠 The Hand Behind the Havoc

When we step back from the horror, a larger story begins to come into view. The Old Testament isn’t the record of an angry God losing control—it’s the story of a Father fighting for the survival of His children.

The world of Noah, Abraham, and Moses was not peaceful or kind. It was soaked in blood—filled with child sacrifice, warlords, cruelty, and corruption so deep it poisoned everything it touched. Generation after generation drifted further from the One who gave them breath, and violence became their native tongue.

So God acted. He separated light from darkness, called out a people for Himself, and set boundaries to protect the fragile hope of redemption. When the waters rose in Noah’s day, it wasn’t blind rage—it was heartbreak. When nations fell under judgment, it wasn’t revenge—it was rescue.

Every command, every act that seems so fierce, was part of a Father’s fierce love—love that protects, love that preserves, love that refuses to let evil consume what is still good.

The same God who later said, “Love your enemies,” was already fighting to make that command possible—to keep alive the lineage through which perfect love would one day enter the world.


💔 The Grief of a Father

“The Lord regretted that He had made man on the earth, and His heart was deeply troubled.” (Genesis 6:6)

Those words aren’t about a God who realized He made a mistake—they reveal a Father whose heart was breaking. He wasn’t sorry that He created humanity; He was sorrowful for what sin had done to His children. He grieved the violence, the cruelty, the corruption that filled the earth—and the terrible cost of what must come next.

When we picture God sending the flood, we often imagine wrath. But maybe the truer image is a Father standing in the rain, heart shattered, knowing that love sometimes demands what it most despises. The flood wasn’t the rage of an angry deity—it was the heartbreak of a loving One.


🛡️ Love That Disciplines

Any parent who has ever had to discipline a child severely understands that ache. You don’t do it because you hate them—you do it because you love them too much to stand by and watch them destroy themselves. You see the danger they can’t yet see. You know the pain they’re walking toward. And something deep inside you says, No, not my child.

So you draw a hard line. You raise your voice. You take away what they cherish most. Sometimes, you even take a belt to the backside—not out of rage, but out of heartbreak. The sting isn’t punishment for punishment’s sake; it’s meant to stop something far worse before it takes root. The pain is intended to prevent destruction—not as an act of anger, but as an act of love.

And you know, as you do it, they’ll see you as cruel. You’ll watch tears spill and hear words you wish you could unhear, and every part of you will want to stop. But you don’t—because love that never corrects isn’t love at all. It’s easier to be liked than to be right, but a father’s love chooses what’s needed over what’s easy.

That’s the pulse behind divine judgment. It’s not the fury of a tyrant—it’s the heartbreak of a Father. Every act of discipline echoes the same cry: “If only you would turn back to Me.”

But love could only discipline for so long. To finish the story, love would have to descend.

Love didn’t change between the flood and the cross — it simply took on flesh. ✝️

🌧️ The God Who Entered the Flood

The story of the Old Testament is the story of a Father doing everything He can to save His children from themselves. But when warnings, prophets, and judgments could no longer reach us—when sin had woven itself too deeply into the fabric of humanity—He did the unthinkable.

He stepped in. He didn’t shout from heaven anymore; He came down into the storm. The Word became flesh and walked among us. The Judge became the judged. The Creator entered His creation to bear the very curse that broke it.

It’s as if God Himself stepped into the floodwaters—not to destroy, but to drown with us, to raise us back to life in His own resurrection. Love that once stood outside the ark now became the ark. The same hands that once shut the door now stretched wide on the cross to say, “Come in.”

The Father who once grieved over a world too far gone was now hanging in its midst, absorbing its violence, its hatred, and its sin. The same heart that wept before the flood now bled for the world it could not stop loving.

What we see in Jesus isn’t a different side of God—it’s the completion of the same love that has always been. The storm of wrath and the flood of mercy meet in Him. And when it’s over, all that remains is grace.


⛓️ The Horror That He Chose

The story of God’s love reaches its climax on a hill called Golgotha. The sky went dark. The earth shook. The Son of God hung between heaven and earth—mocked, bleeding, abandoned. The cross was not a gentle scene. It was horror. Torture. Injustice at its worst.

And yet, in that horror, “God was in Christ, reconciling the world to Himself.” He didn’t send someone else to take the pain. He came Himself.

The God who once grieved over the flood—the One who watched His creation destroy itself—stepped into its ruin. He took the weight of all our violence, all our rebellion, all our heartbreak—and He let it crush Him. Every act of judgment we fear in the Old Testament found its fulfillment there, in the broken body of Love.

Because that’s what God has always done. He enters the mess. He absorbs the pain. He bears the consequence. He doesn’t stand above the suffering of humanity—He steps into it to bring us home.

And that’s what He’s still doing now. Wherever shame, confusion, or doubt live—He’s there, reconciling the world to Himself. Even now, in your story, in mine, in every place that still feels like judgment, His mercy is at work.

The cross was not the end of wrath; it was the beginning of restoration. 🌿

🔭 Looking Back — and Forward

We can’t dismiss the terror of history. The flood, the fire, the wars—they still stand as monuments of pain and warning. But they are also mirrors. Because these stories were never only about them. They’re about us.

Every age has built its towers, drawn its swords, and filled its own earth with violence. Every heart has known rebellion, pride, and selfishness. And every one of us has needed the same mercy that washed over the world in those ancient days.

The story of the Old Testament is our story—humanity trying and failing to live without God, and a Father refusing to give up on His children. And then came the Cross.

There, in one breathtaking act, all the sorrow of history and all the judgment of sin met their end. The wrath, the regret, the grief, the flood—it all converged on that hill. And Love Himself absorbed it.

At the cross, God looked upon the chaos of creation—and made it perfect again. Somehow, somewhere, sometime, in ways we can’t yet see, “It is finished” wasn’t just for that day. It was for all of time.

No one is left out. No one is abandoned. The God who once wept over the flood now reigns from the cross—reconciling, restoring, redeeming—until everything broken is whole again. ✨


📖 The Story of Redemption

The entire Bible, taken as a whole, is a story of redemption — of people just like us who have sinned terribly against God, against others, and against ourselves. It’s the story of a God who loved us before the foundation of the world. Like birth, it’s painful and complicated and bloody — but like birth, it ends with new life. 🕊️

We will be born again. We will see the Father’s face and finally understand love in a way we can’t imagine now. We know through Peter’s words that Jesus slipped back through time and ransomed those who could have been lost. And today, in this moment, He has stepped into my time — rescuing me from myself, from my own sin, from my own chaos. ⛓️❤️

I can’t make God like me. I don’t even want a God I can manage or fully comprehend. He’s outside my world, above my thoughts — yet still, He enters my world, slips into my shoes, takes my hand, and leads me where only love can lead.

That’s my God — amazing, fearsome, and wonderful. ✨
Thy Kingdom Come

Thy Kingdom Come

Thy Kingdom Come

Thy Kingdom Come

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On a quiet hillside, a prayer that changed everything

The air was still warm from the afternoon sun.
The hills of Judea lay quiet as Jesus stepped away to pray again.
The disciples watched from a distance — not wanting to interrupt, yet unable to look away.

They’d seen Him heal the blind, calm storms, and lift the brokenhearted.
But this — this was different.
When Jesus prayed, it was as though heaven bent down to listen.
No pretense, no performance, just a Son talking to His Father.
The air itself seemed to hush.

When He finished, one of them finally asked, “Lord… teach us to pray.”

Jesus smiled — not surprised, as if He’d been waiting for that question.
He didn’t give them a chant to memorize, but a way to live.

“When you pray, say… Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.”
— Luke 11:2–3

Those words weren’t about a faraway kingdom after death.
They were a declaration for this moment.
A call for heaven’s life to break into earth — right here, right now, through us.

Jesus wasn’t teaching us to escape this world;
He was showing us how to bring God’s world into ours.

Every time you forgive, heaven touches earth.
Every time you choose peace over pride, generosity over greed, compassion over criticism — the Kingdom comes a little closer.
Not someday. Today.
Not somewhere else. Here.

Making It Personal

I’ve whispered those words more times than I can count — sometimes in faith, sometimes out of habit, sometimes not sure I believed they could change anything.
But Jesus meant them as an invitation, not a ritual.

Because if His Kingdom comes… mine has to go.
If His will is done… mine has to yield.
And maybe that’s where real life begins.

Thy Kingdom come in my life means:
Let Your forgiveness flow through me where resentment once ruled.
Let generosity loosen my grip on what’s mine.
Let my words build peace instead of proving I’m right.
Let love decide how I treat the slow cashier, the rude driver, the person who pushes every button I have.

But what about when it’s harder than that?
What about when the Kingdom asks me to forgive someone who isn’t sorry?
To let go of control when everything in me wants to tighten my fists?
To love people who drain me?
That’s where heaven’s rule meets the edges of my heart.

And here’s what I’m learning:
Living in the Kingdom of God doesn’t start with effort — it starts with sight.
When my eyes are opened to the good news that I am already forgiven, everything changes.
Grace has found me.
My sin and failure have been carried away — as far as the east is from the west.
I’m already in the family of God.

When I see that, I turn.
I change direction — not because I’m afraid of punishment, but because I’m captured by love.
I stop chasing self and start chasing this beautiful, wonderful Jesus who loved me enough to die when I should have died.

Salvation isn’t a transaction; it’s a transformation.
It’s not a one-time escape from hell, but a lifelong restoration of relationship — with the One who breathed the stars into the sky and now breathes His Spirit into me.

He’s making me whole.
He’s rescuing me.
He’s restoring the relationship that sin once shattered.

Salvation isn’t merely being saved from something — it’s being saved into something:
into a family, into a kingdom, into love itself.

This is the Gospel — the good news — that opens our eyes, fills our hearts with joy, and turns our steps toward Him.
And when I turn, I find that the Kingdom has already come.
It’s here.
It’s Him.
And I belong in it.

That’s why I can pray with confidence:
Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.
Thy Kingdom come — through me.
Teach me, Lord.
Show me how to live in this Kingdom — how to open my heart and let You truly be my King.

For the Reader

Maybe you’ve always pictured the Kingdom as something you’ll see someday.
But what if it’s already here — hidden in plain sight?
What if it’s in the way you listen to a hurting friend,
or forgive someone who never asked?

The Kingdom isn’t waiting for your deathbed;
it’s waiting for your next breath.

Every time you choose love where it’s hardest,
the King reigns a little more in you.

“The Kingdom of God is within you.” — Luke 17:21

Prayer

Father,
Let Your Kingdom come — not beyond the clouds, but here in the dust where I live.
Let heaven’s mercy rule my words,
heaven’s peace fill my thoughts,
and heaven’s love flow through my hands.
Teach me to live like a citizen of heaven
while my feet still walk this earth —
and let heaven walk with me.
Amen.